Home alone while the girlfriend is out on the road today, traveling to the mid-west for a week of training. While she is away the Taoist will play, or so they say. I will admit I miss her face already, but it will be a short week before she gets back and we can enjoy each other’s company once more.

Today though my mind wonders into odd places. Painting figures, printing out Christmas presents for those we love and otherwise getting up to some good ol’ fashioned no good I am waiting on a call back from someone in my men’s group for a conversation about leadership and what it takes to advance in the group. First time I have seen one of the mentors post their number when I was available, so I am taking them up on the chance for a chat.

Till then I am listening to some uplifting music and pondering a change in musical tastes since Maine. I can’t seem to enjoy depressing or down music; it is almost painful to listen to anymore. Not sure what to think of this change or if it will last, but I do hope that it does. I know that how we feel has a lot to do with environment and if my feeling needs more positive reinforcement to continue with my goals then so be it. It will be worth it in the end.

I am also taking this show on the road so to speak. I just ordered a portable notebook and pen to start to carry on me, notes if you will for things to talk about on this blog. With my memory not being the greatest and having ideas at all hours of the day or night I took the recommendation of a dear brother in arms and picked up some writing instruments to carry in my pocket. I hope that it leads to more regular content on this blog though I am still short on readership. It will come in time though, for now I focus on content, quality content if I am able.

I am also reflecting on this morning, the conversation I had with another brother in the IC that I met for breakfast. Had an awesome chat with him spanning a few hours over way too much coffee. It was well worth it and a long time coming. We parted ways with plans of doing this again in the near future. It really reinforced the feeling that I have had for a few years now, that I don’t fit in where I am currently and that thankfully there are like minded men, even in my neck of the woods, that I can reach out to and speak with. Bounce ideas off of, consider and contemplate with wonderful minds of men in a sea of the deepest blue that keeps infecting my home state. They might be few and far between…. But I am thankful for each of them that I get to interact with and meet. Maine seems to have been the start of something powerful in my life and I am going to continue riding the wave that built while I was back east only a month ago. Though some of the things I wanted to change in my life haven’t panned out, I think it was too much too quick for them to stick. They will come in time though. They will come in time. For now, I will wait for a phone call and later for my honey to come home.